make it stop

i'm so tired of rain - its been miserable since friday and there doesn't seem to be an end in sight... it was pretty crappy in p'burg this weekend too, minus the sun coming out when we were leaving yesterday (figures)... we had a nice, relaxing weekend - got to watch some tennis (i cried when agassi lost!), some movies 'jarhead' and 'unbreakable', hangout w/the family, hangout w/the cows, hangout w/norman's sisters across the street, and eat... i didn't walk ONCE but the weather was just miserable and who wants to go out when its raining anyway... i will give myself a 6 for eating - didn't overdo it but i certainly could've said no to the homemade peach pie that his brother made (w/ice cream of course)... and since we didn't have dinner when we got back yesterday, i stopped at the store for a few things, and got a pizza... weigh-in is not going to be pretty, that's for sure...

i DID go to the gym today and burned 600 calories on the eliptical... it felt good to be active after such a lazy weekend and i had a big bowl of fruit w/yogurt for lunch... not sure what i'm having for dinner yet but i'll keep it healthy...

we'll be going to texas in a few weeks for a wedding - eric's whole family is going and i've been told that these things can get pretty crazy... i dread travelling since its hard to be OP 100% but was told the hotel has a gym and i plan on using it... being there will be BBQs and alcohol galore (the wedding is on a horse ranch), i'm going to exercise everyday and just enjoy myself... of course i enjoyed myself at the beach a few weeks ago and haven't lost what i gained there either... oh well, i'm not going to worry myself sick about it - i'm tired of feeling guilty for having fun... i'm realizing more and more that life is just too damn short and if i'm meant to be this weight, then so be it...

happy monday...