who IS that?!

i just got back to the gym - first time since before the holidays and it felt great (minus my aching foot)... i know this may be hard to believe, but i saw myself in the mirror before showering and was shocked to see how i've let myself go... yes, i "look" in the mirror on a daily basis but honestly - i've been ignoring what i saw and how i was feeling... how sad is that?!?!

i could blame the weight gain on a lot of things: planning a wedding, thanksgiving, getting sick, vacation, christmas, lack of motivation, boredom, but none of those are the real reason... I AM THE REASON for gaining weight (again) and I AM THE ONLY ONE who can fix it... end of story...

i've also been in a semi-funk since the wedding - could it be that i'm sad that all the planning is over and now i have nothing to do? hahaha, that sounds horrible but you know what i mean... i loved looking online for deals, reading wedding blogs, shopping, and planning - it was a challenge and i was good at it (so much so that i thought about starting my own design business)... we all know that funks can put a damper on things but again, i can't blame it exclusively because that would be lame...

/sigh/

so where to start, that is the question... we have a fridge full of leftovers and a counter full of cookies, cake, peanut brittle, caramel corn, and chocolate... besides the ham (which will be made into soup), all of it will be going bye-bye and yes, i hate throwing stuff out but if it's there - i'm going to continue to eat it...

exercise will become a priority again and i'm anxious to start using the Wii... perhaps i will look into taking some sort of class again...

and lastly, i will need to start tracking food again and since i never canceled my WW etools - i'll probably go back (and there's an iPhone app as well)... i haven't done the plan 100% since moving-in with eric and will need to stick to my guns if i want to succeed... yes, it was easier when it was just me and i could control what i ate, but that doesn't mean i can't do it now... i just have to WANT too...

/sigh/

here's to planning and to a healthier and happier 2010...

happy hump day!